Slipped disc getting in the way - like many other things

As I mentioned yesterday, the ugly monster of depression is trying to get back to me.

I got a slipped disc (the little jelly thing in my spine) on Friday. My normal routine would be to run up to 7 miles on Sunday, but the pain is significant and I do not want to hurt myself. I know then if I do not run, this will feed the depression monster; his ugly face will be laughing at me "you are rubbish!"

If I run, I will probably not make the 7 miles, and the injury may got worse. This may feed the depression monster in the long run....

This happens throughout my life from time to time. Either I do what I feel like doing (i.e. not running due to pain), and then I will not achieve what I want to achieve (fitness level), or I force myself to to stuff I do not feel like doing (i.e. run today), and then come out bruised and injured. And this applies to everything - career, study, learning to play music, socializing.

Today I will try a middle approach - will go to the gym, and do the exercise I am comfortable with, perhaps force myself just a little, but be careful. Perhaps this is the way to go.

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In the end, it was not too bad. Once I got to the gym, I found out I was unable to run - the vertebrae in my spine were producing some noises that sounded rather ominous, so I decided not to force it. But I spent 40 minutes on a stationary cycle, and then I was able to complete almost all elements of my routine. Again, this is a pattern I see quite often, I worry about trying to start something, yet once I do start it, it goes quite well. Of course as long as it is something I care about.