Today, they got me. I mean the "monsters". I do not know how, I do not know why today, and I do not know when exactly. All I know is that I woke up today, and I feel like in the middle of the "down" period. I could hardly get out of bed, I had not reason to make my morning coffee or take the shower. I looked at my iphone to check the morning batch of my work emails (generated mostly in a different timezone), and each of them was making me feel angry, guilty, pointing out to something I had not done right. At least in my perception. Also see no real reason in work, no real reason in getting through the day, no real reason to do my hobbies. No real reason to live, except for providing for my family. Nothing for me in it.
I am guessing that there must be something chemical going in my brain, as nothing serious happened yesterday, I did not drink too much, I did not have any new or different problems or challenges (on the contrary, I managed to fix a few things that had been bothering me for a while), I had a pretty nice amount of exercise at day and sleep at night. Without any nightmare dreams.
The monsters must have sucked something out of me.
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