10-day perspective

I have been posting for the last 10 days, so time for a little recap. Basically, recording my key emotions of each day helped me see that in a period like the current one - i.e. swinging between normal mood outside, and depressive bouts inside - I can manage myself reasonable well during the day, but there is an underlying layer of anxiety (?), fear (?), doubt (?), self-hatred (?) which manifests itself at night - these are my "night monters".

I need to do something about it. First thing, as usual, will be searching for information and similar experience on the web.